Andy’s Health Update
Many of you who know me might have noticed that I have not been around much over the past six months. Prior to that, you may have seen me at various marketing conferences and events. There’s a reason I’ve pretty well disappeared from the scene. I’m living with a chronic illness that will take my life anywhere from a few months to a couple of years from now.
For some background…
Back in 1998, I passed out on an exercise machine at a health club, wound up spending the next week in Lahey Clinic in Burllngton, MA as they gave me one test after the other to determine, finally, that I was suffering from cardiomyopathy. What caused my cardiomyopathy was still in question, but at least they knew what it was. They prescribed some medication for me, installed a brand spankin’ new pacemaker in my chest, and sent me on my way…
Flash forward 4 years to October 27th, 2002. That morning, while doing a strenuous Tai Kwan Do workout with my girlfriend (now my wife) Jeanne and my daughter Hannah, I experience a sudden loss of all strength in my body and felt light headed and dizzy. I tried to walk it off to no avail. What I didn’t know at that moment was that I was in the process of having my first of three heart attacks that day.
Jeanne drove me down to Lahey’s emergency room and, after many hours of negotiating our way through a series of runarounds and incomprehensible delays, when my second heart attack started kicking in, they finally started to do something to help me.
That night, in order to save my life, my cardiologist, Dr. David Martin and my thoracic surgeon, Dr. Richard D’Agostino performed emergency quadruple bypass surgery. It was during that surgery that the doctors discovered the cause of my heart problems: one half of my heart was severely burned (leaving it black and leathery, very inflexible) due to 14 weeks of high intensity radiation treatments back in 1973 when I was being treated for testicular cancer.
Apparently, the burns affected me all the way from my groin to my left shoulder, which caused damage to all my organs in between. So we finally had a diagnosis for my original cardiomyopathy, it was called radiation induced cardiomyopathy.
So a treatment that saved my life back when I was 18 years old was the cause of my heart disease — which will ultimately kill me — some 30 years later.
When I came out of surgery, the doctors were very pessimistic, feeling I wouldn’t leave the hospital alive. Indeed, it took me a long time to recover, and I was never the same afterwards.
A few weeks later I was diagnosed with congestive heart failure, which means my heart doesn’t pump strongly enough to pump blood to all my organs. It also results in a lot of swelling in my legs, ankles, feet, and most recently my belly (my belly looks like I’m several months pregnant — all of it is heart failure related fluid) which I can’t get rid of no matter what I do.
In the ensuing six years, I’ve been hospitalized dozens of times for a variety of heart failure related maladies. Each hospitalization has taken it’s toll: I’ve gotten progressively sicker and weaker with every hospital stay.
One of the problems that surface for advanced heart failure patients is a low Albumin count, which is known in medical circles as Hypoalbuminemia. Albumin is a protein produced by your liver which functions to convert the nutrients you take in into muscle and good things your body needs to function.
A normal Albumin count is around 5. You’re considered to have a low Albumin count at 3.2. My albumin count (since we’ve been tracking it beginning in January of 2007) has ranged from 1.4 to 1.9. Those are dangerously low levels. It’s not a sufficient level to support life. In my case, it translates into a severe level of malnutrition. Though I eat food, it doesn’t convert to the nutrients and other good things my body needs to survive. So I’m literally starving to death. If you saw me, I’m emaciated (with the exception of my aforementioned swollen belly. For that reason, I’m prone to wearing baggy pants and sweaters, so it’s not obvious to people who come by for a visit. I don’t want to freak them out.
So, coming full circle, I have two factors working against my living more than a year or two: congestive heart failure and a dangerously low level of Albumin.
Generally, if a person is suffering from terminal cancer or kidney disease, a doctor seeing a low Albumin count like mine will shorten their prognosis significantly. It means they are dying.
But up until fairly recently, there had been no research on heart failure combined with low albumin counts. I came across a research abstract on Google last night that talked about just that.
It’s pretty dense reading, but let me translate it for you.
The UCLA Cardiomyopathy Center studied a group of 1726 patients with advanced heart failure. They split them up into two groups, one which was comprised of CHF patients with normal (3.4 and above) albumin levels and one with Hypoalbuminemia (below 3.4). They tracked their one year survival rate, and the patients with normal levels of albumin had an 83% survival rate, while those with Hypoalbuminemia had a 66% survival rate. Over a period of 5 years, those with Hypoalbuminemia are 2.2 times more likely to die from heart failure than those with normal albumin levels.
So heart failure and Hypoalbuminemia are a deadly combination, which is why my medical team concluded I’ve got anywhere from several months to two years to survive.
I’ve outlived pessimistic prognostications several times over the years, and I plan to live every day as a healthy person rather than playing the role of the sick patient waiting to die. I don’t give up that easily.
Nevertheless, I’m very weak, have very little strength, can’t walk a full city block, haven’t been able to work in many months, and have great difficulty eating more than a very small portion of food at any given time without getting very full.
I’m prepared for the worst but hoping for the best.
Should my time be short, I’m at peace with that too. I’ve lived a great life, have had many wonderful blessings, have been able to touch many lives and have no lingering regrets or unfinished business.
If it’s my time to go, I go in peace.
If you happen to know someone who knows me, I hope you will feel free to send them a link to this article to update them on my health and my future.
I’d love to read any comments you want to leave, and will be happy to respond to any questions you might have.
Thanks for following this overly long blog entry…
Andy,
I read this with great sorrow. The exposure you gave me in Clickz, (hard to believe around 10 years now) helped me in my career immensely. I know we have had our good and bad times, but I will always be grateful for the help you’ve given me. My prayers go out to you and your family.
Bill McCloskey
Thanks for the medical update and clarification of what you’ve been going through, Andy. I’ve passed the link to your blog onto Nancy, Allison and Leslie.
Love you, man.
Andrew
I’ve been on your list for just a few months and your integrity shines through all of your communications. I love getting your emails in the knowledge that I can trust you and your recommendations.
The above letter is remarkable. I have nothing to say but to pass on my thoughts to you and your family. I really wish you well.
Andy,
You’ve always been a good and truly valuable friend, and I know you’ll love living the life you’ve got left, just as much as you’ve loved living the life you’ve had.
Chin up, and know that our prayers are with you and your family.
Andy,
Do you have any idea how inspiring what you’ve written is?
I’m truly proud to know you, pal.
If there’s anything I can do for you — ANYTHING — please do not hesitate to ask. I would consider it a favor to allow me to help in any way.
All my best,
Brian McLeod
Andy–Bill M just passed your blog link along. I’e thought of you and yours often as I hadn’t seen you around and as I am still in the Andover area. So what do I say other than this totally sucks. But we have had you longer than those doc’s expected. Thanks for my start at ClickZ and thanks for always being there. Know you have many friends and colleagues that think of you often.Godspeed
Andy,
Bill passed this along and I am glad he did but saddened to say the least. The good thing is that yo’ve been able to fight this long. The enivatable sucks big time. I’m so thankful to you guys giving me a chance at ClickZ so many years ago. Thanks for always being there. I think of you and yours often (as I am still kicking around Andover). Know you have many friends and colleagues out there wishing you peace and Godspeed.
S
Andy, as you may know, I’ve followed your career in order to launch my own. We’ve met a few times, I’ve learned from you your teams through your various business ventures. Ironic that someone who has given me great knowledge within my field is now giving me insight into some lessons of life.
I am very sad about your situation, but inspired about your outlook and positive attitude. I will continue to hope and wish for the best. As I begin to mentor young people coming into our industry, your lessons will be passed on.
Peace, Brian Shepherd
Andy,
I write this through tears of empathy for what your family and close friends must be feeling and yourself. If you have the ability to really know how immensely you have effected the lives of many, please know that today. I send you as much heartfelt wishes for your health healing and deep inner peace. Andy no way! I quote this bit from a Scottish film of a woman w/ one month to live. “One More Kiss” She makes a video to her loved ones and says the following. ‘ Do not sleep walk through life.
Grab it. Seize the day. And most of all…Do not go gentle into that good night.
Rage…. Rage! against the dying of the light.’ Dylan Thomas. My heart is full and I pray for you and yours. -Shea
Hi Andy,
Wow, your post is so inspiring. I knew you were courageous and now I see how incredibly courageous you really are. It was a real pleasure working with you a year ago. I will always appreciate how you were able to open some doors for me. I miss working with you and am so glad to know how you’re doing. I just want you to know that our thoughts and prayers are with you- please let me know if there’s ever anything I can do for you. Wishing you laughter, sunshine and my favorite Irish prayer- “May the road rise up to meet you. May the wind always be at your back. May the sun shine warm upon your face, and rains fall soft upon your fields. And until we meet again, May God hold you in the palm of His hand. Warmest, Shannon
Hi Andy,
I had noticed you were absent from the Warrior Forum and other spots I was used to “seeing” you online. I had no idea it was do to illness.
Your article is a true inspiration. You’re a fighter with incredible courage. Thank you for sharing your stories. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
Alan
Andy,
Around 10 years ago I turned to Click Z to help me sort through this new medium and then started writing on occasion for you.
Yesterday, I was speaking with my son about Thoreau’s Walden and what sucking the marrow out of life meant…and what it means to live every day as if it was your last.
Science doesn’t have the last word and I pray that you have many more. But please know that you have impacted many people’s lives more than you know…from coast to coast and in between.
A heartfelt thanks is due.
Bless you and yours,
Jaffer Ali, CEO
http://www.vidsense.com
Andy,
My wife and I are praying for you. Thanks for all the help and encouragement you’ve given me over the years. Has it been 12 years already? I remember the early days of ClickZ.
We are thinking of you. Please feel free to reach out to me by email.
God bless,
Adam
Andy, I wish you the best and hope that pain doesn’t compound your diminished energy. May you prove your doctors wrong yet again. You have the best attitude.
Andy,
So glad to have met and worked with you on MarketingFix/Wonk/VOX. We had good times getting that up and running.
You are facing life’s curve balls admirably. My thoughts and prayers are with you and I wish you the best as you soldier on
Steve
Andy, I found this via your Facebook status update. Thank you for being so open and honest and for sharing all this with those of us who know you well and those others, like me, who just had the privilege to meet you a few times. You influenced me greatly, though, by founding ClickZ, where I spent a number of years as managing editor. I wish you the best and hope you experience some more good times before it all comes to an end (as it eventually does for us all).
Andy,
I love you. Thanks for being a great friend. There are so many, in this silly industry of ours and I’m sure many beyond it, who owe you a huge debt of gratitude for your indomitable spirit, humor and good will.
Thanks for being a good friend. Hoping we can meet again soon.
Rick
Andy,
It’s with deep sorrow that I read about your health situation thanks to an alert from Rick Bruner. You have been a great help to many in the industry and that will endure for years to come via ClickZ. Your account of your health challenges is incredibly moving–thanks for sharing it all with us.
God bless you,
Rich
Andy:
Have met you a few times, have been a fan, as it were, for as long as I can remember. You’re a pioneer, who will continue to leave a lasting mark not only on this industry, but on the world as a whole, and it’s a better world that you’re in it.
You’ll continue facing down the odds as you’ve been doing. I believe that.
G-d Bless you, Andy.
-Peter Shankman
I am saying a prayer and hoping for a miracle. I am so sorry to hear about your illness and my thoughts are with you!
Andy,
I admire your strength, resolve, and willingness to share. It reminds me of my father before he passed away due to Mantle Cell Lymphoma. He worked until the day before he died and pretty much refused to let it hold him back. Keep fighting, not even the smartest doctors in the world know when anyone’s time is up.
Peace,
Eric
Andy,
In the early days of ClickZ, you were an inspiration, and now tenfold.
Your stamina given your situation is beyond admirable. It’s astonishing and inspiring. Every time I pen a column for ClickZ, I think of its history.
Best, Kevin.
Andy,
Much saddened to read your courageous post. God decides when we enter this world and God decides when we exit. What we do in between is up to us. You’ve done wonderful things and earned some peace of mind…
Not bad at all, my friend. My prayers are with you and yours.
Jeff
Andy –
We never met in person, but the spirit that you started with the OT group has infused me creatively and for that I thank you for even including me. You touched not just me, but the many that were given voice and inspiration. I am honored by simply being a beneficiary of your honor, being included under the tent of your vision, mission, and ambition.
I would say pithy things, but you have such character that they would be meaningless. I can make trite observations, but believe you are already at peace with yourself, your wife, and your daughter. I can propound cliché but oddly believe you have already embraced the future, whatever that may be. Weaker people, with fewer challenges, have resigned from life with little fight. You have not and remain a voice of leadership, vision, and will be living on with your family, and this group that holds you in such high esteem. Immortal, perhaps not, but just perhaps.
Above all, you are a man of character that has made the differences so many simply talk about. Thank you for living.
Dane
all the best andy - keep a fighting spirit! we’re all rooting for you.
people who think blogs are a useless fad hasn’t had the chance to be brought into someones life like this.
Andy, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
Eric
Dear Andy,
We never met in person, but exchanged emails on certain topics via our OTer’s association. I was alerted to your current update via a Rick Bruner post. You are in a most informative position at this time, about the world and life, and continue to enlighten us and share your thoughts with us. Thank you for your knowledge and your sincere generosity of spirit. Your update carries grace and poise between the lines. warmest regards, tricia keating
Andy,
It’s been about 25 years since we worked together at CPU/Online Computers Plus back in the bad old days of IBM XTs and Apple IIc’s. We did not necessarily part on the best of terms, and I would have liked something different there. But I have come to realize that being 20 something qualifies you as adult in body only, and I am sure that had we had the opportunity to stay in contact over the years we would find much to respect, admire and perhaps even cherish in each other.
It saddens me to read of your current challenges. At the same time I am moved by your equanimity with what is so for you. I will add you to my mediation practice and send whatever healing energy I am able to access your way.
Blessings to you and your family,
Ken
Andy, I am moved by your story of bravery, clarity and strength in the face of your challenges. You have always been a tough guy and that is the way I will always remember you. We’ve had our differences over the years but I have always had great respect for you, the original “moderator of reason” among the real and original Old Timers for which you are one of it’s first, you will always be remembered by me as the great “voice of our industry”. I am smiling for/at you Andy. May happiness, joy and satisfation of a great life, well lived and the love all around you now be with you throughout your time on earth and beyond.
I wish your peace and love forever.
David
Andy,
I just got the link from the OT List. We may not have met in person, but to me you were the link that helped me connect with many of the best minds in the industry. Now you are inspiring more with your courageous spirit. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Stay strong.
Andy
Andy -
I find your trials and tribulations very hard to comprehend. You are one of the true Digerati, and an inspiration to every Old Timer out there. We all will eventually die, we know that, but some will live in on in inspired ways that leave traces of all that went before. You are truly one of those pioneers.
We owe you a debt of gratitude for your integrity and unerring instincts of what mattered and what was good and right about this industry.
You have a namesake in NASA, Charles Bourland. I propose that we name an as-yet-undiscovered-planet for you, one that will be explored in the near future, as you explored the future for us these many years.
All of us will pray for you, in our many different ways, and wish you godspeed to a place where you have no pain and laugh at all the minor orbital changes we make to this planet.
Mike Crosson
This was very difficult to read but at the same time inspiring. There aren’t many people who have made their mark and touched so many lives as you have. My prayers go out to you and your family.
Your courage and strength are a source of inspiration. We will all miss you but you will not be forgotten.
I’m very sad that we’re going to lose you.
I hope you and your family can have peace.
Warm regards,
Jeffrey
Andy,
Although we’ve never met in person I’ve always appreciated your sheparding of the OldTimers and our industry.
Many like me that do not know you closely will read your post and appreciate your character, struggle and accomplishments. It’s also likely that many of us will feel uncomfortable speaking in the face of all the love that your close friends have expressed here on your post.
I want to represent both myself and those quiet but appreciative souls who are unlikely to speak here, who are still undoubtedly thinking what I’m thinking.
Your wit, intelligence, charm, good nature and perserverance in life and death are meaningful to all of us. You are obviously a man of character - and to me there is no higher compliment. Thank you.
We all wish you and your family peace and love.
- Julian
Andy -
This post touched the core of my soul and I applaud your courage and spirit. I wish you and your family strength, and peace of mind.
We haven’t been in touch in a very long time, and reading this has made me once again reflect on the things that matter in life. Thanks for reminding me and most likely many other friends about that. You continue to inspire.
Thanks for all the contributions you have made, the industry (and the universe) is better off because of it.
If there is anything I can do…
Peace & Love -
Jason
Hi Andy,
What a fighter and what an inspiration. I’m not sure if you remember back from the early ad serving days when I was running PR for Accipiter, but I sure remember you. Working with you in those early days was an education and a blessing for me. I will dedicate my yoga practice to you tomorrow morning and will send out all the positive energy I can muster to you and your loved ones. You are a true pioneer and, as such, you are navigating this illness with true grit and heart. Even if the muscularity of it is failing you, the true heart is in your unbridled spirit.
Peace out,
Kathleen
andy, all of us at Tucows who have had the pleasure of working with you over the years are thinking of you in our prayers.
when I read all of the love you are receiving from people who have never met in RL but just know you online I feel compelled to say you are even better in person!
you are one of the people I liked the moment we met (’97 Internet World in nyc) and I have been lucky enough to have worked with you pretty closely on a few projects and to stay in touch over the years.
I still tell the story of our first interaction as an example of brilliance in Internet marketing (that darn banner on Tucows in ‘96 you genius!! :-)).
much love and prayers from myself, greg and the others here who know you and love you.
en
Andy,
I read the words that you wrote and the comments that have been left for you in response to your blog. It shows how much you and your efforts have touched so many. You should be proud…..I am!
I love you Andy! Your sister…Liz
Andy, I have very much enjoyed working with you and I miss our discussions. I am glad that we had the opportunity to work together. To echo Elliot’s post above you are in our thoughts and prayers.
Dear Andy,
Though, we have never met, your story is a courageous one.
My thoughts are with your family as you continue your battle.
Best,
bob
Andy,
Though we’ve never personally met, you’ve helped influence the last 10 years of my life with what you created in ClickZ. Here I am, with less than 20 minutes to go before my ClickZ submittal deadline, and just read the news about you. Had to stop what I’m doing and send positive thoughts your way. Attitude is everything and yours is fantastic. Stay the course and continue to defy the odds.
My best,
Hollis Thomases
Andy…
Eloquent post - as we have all been accustomed to from you. I have always thought of you as one of the true Internet pioneers. You were a big part of a time when energy, optimism, idealism and passion were abundant. I miss that time - and I’m going to miss you.
Take Care My Friend,
John
Andy,
I too got the word from Rick Bruner, and I’m so deeply grateful for the courage and understanding that allowed you to share your story so broadly. You and I fell out of touch after those wonderful early Clickz days, but I often think of you, wonder what you are up to, and appreciate all you have done to make this industry, and through it our world, a better place. I’m grateful for the chance to share that appreciation with you while you can still hear it.
As much as I treasure (and mourn) the update though, you’ve been given a gift of time, and I encourage it to spend it selfishly…focus on family, and those you hold dearest; you have already touched so many of us, you need do no more for the masses of Andy fans
I encourage you to live each day focusing only on what matters most to you, and especially on loving and treasuring those deepest in your heart.
Though I’ve always been inspired by you, knowing that you live this last precious time focused on the love of those who matter most…that will be the most inspiring of all.
If there is anything, ANYTHING, I can do for you, just ask.
Janet
Hello Andy - we’ve never met yet I’ve long followed your insights as a leader in our media world. Thanks and I hope you realize you have so much support and respect from so many others just like me - perfect strangers connected only in this virtual world. Reading your column reminds me of the words once sung by CSN: rejoice, rejoice, we have no choice but to carry on. Stay strong, be positive we will carry on.
God bless,
JVW
Somehow it’s not surprising that even through this ordeal that you show the power of media and social media. Your story is poignant, yes, but as I’ve read through the comments of others above, it demonstrates the power of someone who spent their professional career engaging with people and ideas.
We’re not yet ready for an opening for the OldTimers. Keep fighting!
Andy thanks for all the support and encouragement over the years. Anyone who has known you is richer for it. Let’s hope we get to enjoy you for years to come! My thoughts are with you and your family.
Hey Andy -
Thank you for showing us a vision of the Internet that always made sense and always benefited everybody involved.
Thank you for showing us a way to live that spread love and support to all you touch - and your reach is vast.
Thank you for showing us a brave way to face the end of life.
You have always been an inspiration and something tells me that’ll never end.
Thank you.
Hey Andy,
In all my experiences with you, you seemed to have a exceptional heart. I’m sorry to hear the news, but wish the very best each and every day you have over the next few years.
Not months, but years.
Sending you my best wishes and prayers for you and the family.
Your friend,
Jason
Andy
I to do not know you, but I would like to say it must have taken tremendous strength and courage to write your post.
Having suffered serious illness myself I know the toll it can take on your family and friends.
I would like to offer you my best wishes for the future.
Warm regards
Jim
Hey Andy,
I had no idea of your health troubles. I’ll keep you in my prayers…. keep your spirits up!
JJ
May each blessed day be filled with love.
Nicola
J-Mo put out a Tweet and that’s how I found out…and I appreciate knowing B/C now I can tell you to remember that “It ain’t over ’til it’s over.” Miracles still happen!
They really do.
They happen all the time.
And even though we don’t always expect them; they sure humble us even more than we already are, when they do happen…
We don’t know each other personally Andrew, but I’d like to say that you are one sharp guy, and you have sewn lots of seeds.
I thank you for sharing your knowledge with the world!
Blessings, and may you be restored to great original health. That’s what I’m thinkin’
Sincerely,
Alicia (WF member)
Hi Andy,
I just heard about your blog post via the Warrior Forum.
We met at Jeff Walker’s Live Event in Denver Colorado back in July of last year.
You had your trademark tan jacket on and were as charismatic as ever.
I recall you mentioning your health challenges but didn’t realize the full extent of it.
That said do not give up just yet and never forget the power of your mind and spirit (particularly your fantastic mind and spirit).
Just remember that doctors and consultants don’t know everything about your body, the disease or your ability to heal.
They often have a limited outlook on the body and view it in purely physical terms - and discount the power of your mind and spirit.
This may be the point at which their expertise ends and another route is required.
Whatever happens Andy it sounds like you are at peace with your situation and that is a blessing.
May you live much longer than expected and continue to touch the lives of those you love most.
Also we give thanks for the contribution you’ve already made in this world and know that the world is a better place for having you in it.
Peace and love,
Shaun O’Reilly
We’re pulling for you, man.
!Que viva Andy Bourland- LONG LIVE Andy!!!
Hey buddy- just got the news today and my thoughts are with you and with your family. Just simply looking at the people who have responded to your post- a veritable who’s who of the Internet marketing world- speaks volumes to the impact you had on the industry. Your hands did the heavy lifting that got a huge sector off the ground, and dozens, hundreds, even thousands and millions of lives are better for it, mine included.
May the love you’ve spread to so many come back to you tenfold and heal the huge heart you have inside you.
Yours,
Darian
Dear Andy,
Jason over at Twitter asked that we send you some words of encouragement. But honestly, after reading your story I know I don’t have the words to adequately express how sorry I am for the suffering you and your family are going through at this time.
I feel the only words I can express are ones I will send to my Father in Heaven.
Bless you and your family,
Mellisa
Andy:
Though we’ve never met in person, you’ve been a force within my overall professional sphere for a very long time. And, this means so very much.
Moved by your commitment to communication and the open forum. As it should be, though many would not — you persist with such warmth and revelation.
Sending goodness your way, through the night.
KMA
Hey Andy,
You were kind to fool me a few months ago, that you were okay.
My heart is heavy with your struggle.
You are truly one of the classiest, good-natured guys I’ve ever met.
Wouldn’t mind doing some leg work for you until you’re better.
If I haven’t emailed you, before you want to, use the one above so I can give my new phone#.
Praying earnestly for you.
Ed
our love is with u, andy
Andy,
Clearly you’ve touched many lives as evidenced by the many comments here.
My grandpa just died from congestive heart failure in mid October. He had the leg swelling and restlessness.
I empathize and hope you enjoy the rest of your days to the maximum level.
Alexander
to be honest I never heard of you but I’m fairly new. All I got to go on is your post. Frankly that’s all I need to go on. From a soul that doesn’t know you but can see the enduring strength of a truly great person. You have my thoughts, prayers and anything I can give. Enjoy everything you have and know the thoughts of many are with you now. You touched me with that post, heaven knows what you’ve done for others.
Peace, Andy.
And {{{hugs}}}
Peggy
Hi Andy,
I saw a mention on Shawn Collins’ twitter stream and came over to read your update.
Reading through your updates, I felt a sense of dread and pain, yet at the same time, I can feel your courage and spirit through your words.
Serious illness and our mortality is never an easy issue to deal with, even at the best of times, and with your post, you’ve caused many of us who’re reading to evaluate what we’ve been doing and where we’re headed for.
I’ve been similarly inspired by Randy Pausch who delivered his “Last Lecture” and sadly passed on a couple of months ago.
But in his time, he’s brought so much courage to the people around him.
I hope you continue giving us updates on your condition when you’re up to it and you’ll be in our prayer.
PS: If you haven’t already listened to Randy’s speeches and interviews, a number are linked from his wiki entry (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Randy_Pausch)
Take care and God bless.
Andrew Wee
Oh, Andy.
Your name’s come up so often lately, and I’ve been thinking of you enormously. What an impact it is reading this post. It only increases the admiration I’ve had for you since I was a mere ClickZ subscriber. How honored I was to have you champion me when I took the reins, and what a proud moment it was sharing the stage (and dinner) with you to celebrate the first decade of only one of your many considerable achievements.
All my best wishes and hopes go out to you and your family, now and forever. You’ve not only been an inspiration and a mentor, but also a true, good friend.
Love,
Rebecca
Andy, just was forwarded this link from Crystal and wanted to wish you my very best.
As I look through these blog postings–it is great to see how you have had an impact on some many people within the industry. Back in early 1996 when we somehow got Andover off the ground, then repositioned and so on–it brings back a lot of memories of Bruce, Jim and the entire wacky group. We were all so busy changing our little corner of the world.
Your transition to ClickZ (I still remember you showing me the ClickZ logo in the lobby of the Thunder Lizard show in Monterey–the pride on your face was really over the top) was very brave and took a lot of internal strength at the time–the same sort of strength you will need to draw upon moving forward with your medical condition.
God bless you Andy and all the positive energy I can muster is being sent in your direction.
Mike
Andy, with your positive attitude and outlook to life, I am sure you’ll lead a fulfilling and satisfying day, every day… and will remember you in my prayers.
Don’t let statistics and prognoses ‘condition’ the way you think and feel. True, they are indicators - but also remember, they are predictions, not 100% accurate foresights.
What you wrote about the testing times you’re going through will give many people - including me - a dose of inspiration and perspective about our own uncertain existence.
Good strength - and good cheer, Andy.
Your friend,
Dr.Mani
Andy,
Although we’ve never met, I feel as though I know you. Having read your articles for years, you’ve been a trusted voice throughout the internet evolution.
Thanks for all you’ve done for us and my prayers are with you and your family.
Lorren Elkins
Hi Andy, wow, an old mutual friend passed me the link to this post. I’m so sorry to hear about what you have been and are dealing with. I had assumed not seeing you around meant you were out living life to its fullest as you deserve after having done so much for others in the first part of your life.
I wish for the best for you, Jeanne and your family. If there’s anything I can do…. it goes without saying.
Sharon
Andy - I’m sad that your health is declining - but happy to hear that your spirit is so strong. You’ve had a huge impact on me and my career. You’re in my thoughts, and my wish for you is that you can have good days, every day.
Hi Andy,
I’ve just landed here via Shawn Collins. Your story made me think of what life is and how is it possible to end just like that. you know what? I don’t believe it ends. Over the past few years, many people who were very dear to me passed away, and somehow, I developed a strange certitude that they are only “away”, and that death is only a step in our evolution. It cannot end here. I think we are all going to meet in the after world, so all that matters is to be prepared to cross that line. I wish you all the best and I hope you’ll see thousand more sunny days and starry nights before that happens.
Hey Andy–I’m praying for you man. Keep your chin up!
JW
Andy,
It’s been a long time since we connected, but your posting once again showcases the impact you have on all of us. You have and continue to be a visionary and that will never change.
If I can do anything to help you or your family in the coming months, please don’t hesitate to ask.
I hope in these tough times you can find peace knowing the many lives you have inspired, influenced and the positive impact you had on so many (I am truly blessed to be be part of that crowd).
I really wish you and your family the best.
Nick
Wow, Andy. I just sat here for about three minutes without thinking of anything to say.
All I can really say: we’re thinking of you.
Sam
Andy,
I’m sitting here trying to absorb this, and I’m having a hard time. I’m deeply saddened to read this.
The way you live your life and treat people is an inspiration… and it continues to be.
I’m going to go with what Frank said - Mary and I are pulling for you…
Jeff
My thoughts and prayers to you and your family.
Mark
Andy
Jeff Walker send me this link. We used to be on the Online Ads list together, over a decade ago, and it was a blast from the past to get the link — but certainly not the sort of news anyone wants to convey.
I’m sure it was difficult writing this, but I thank you for taking the time and effort to do it. I hope you gain strength from the outpouring of good wishes of those posting here, and those who couldn’t think of anything to say. We all care, and wish you the best.
Hey Andy,
Thank you for sharing your situation with us. While it of course saddens me greatly, I am heartened to know that you are in the place that you are - to have no regrets, no unfinished business - to be at peace - many people who live far longer lives never achieve that peace.
May your days always be filled with that peace, and may your own strength and grace be a comfort to those around you - most especially your friends and family.
Thank you for being who you are - our thoughts and prayers are with you.
Warmly,
Anne
I refuse to write something maudlin, so I will write nothing.
Hi Andy,
Do you think that any of the medication that you may be on is contributing to the malnutrition by blocking liver function? You may also want to look into other nutritional therapies such as the Gerson diet.
Take care. You can make it through all this if you think you can.
John
Andy:
I hope that the tremendous outpouring of support you see here and elsewhere will lift your spirits. Look around at all the people who are coming out of the woodwork to remind you of how significantly you’ve affected them. It’s amazing.
Andy, you gave a lot of people here their first break as business writers, me included. We’re always going to be very grateful for that. I’m fortunate in that I got to work with you on more than one occasion.
I’m really pulling for you, Andy. Hang in there, and please don’t hesitate to call on me if there’s anything I can do.
All my Best,
Tom
Be Encouraged Andy,
Just Read a Tweet about Your health
Update from Chris Knight minutes ago. We are praying with You and Your Family. Here is the Unction that I’m receiving as we write this note.
Keep the Faith, Have Faith In God: Now Faith is the substance of things hoped for, and the evidence of things not seen. Hebrews 11:1 Please Read
this: Matthew 8:5-13 - God Is Love,
God Is Good, God Is One. Be Blessed
always…Peace!
Andy…I don’t know you personally, but I am in tears right now. I don’t really have the words to say and I’ve been writing all my life. So I will leave it at this.
My grandmother used to say to me this one thing that has always kept me going…
“Where this is life…there is hope.”
Please do not give up on that hope because miracles DO happen.
My prayers are with you.
I just wish I had gotten to know you.
Sincerely,
Steven Wagenheim
Andy,
I was in the Warrior Forum and read the post about your blog and your situation. You and I have never met personally, but I recognized your name immediately and was concerned.
You have entered the lives of so many people in the marketing world and helped them out. It is my sincere wish that you continue to do so for a long time yet.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family in this difficult time and situation.
You are truly an inspiration.
Glenn Newsome
I am praying for you. God bless.
I wish you the very best Andrew. You’re a great person and I admire your courage in this very difficult time.
Dear Andy,
I think of you as one of the special ones in this Internet Marketing industry. I always valued your insights that you freely gave me and others.
You are one of the early success stories, but more than that, you did it with a sense of grace and class that also sets an example and a benchmark for all of us. You seem to find the good in business and in life, no matter the adverse circumstances.
Your openness for sharing and new ideas is inspirational to me. I will carry that forward the rest of my life, however long that is.
G-d bless you and your family.
Andy - I learned about this post while celebrating at my retirement party from MarketingSherpa last Friday night. I don’t know if you know it, but I publicly thanked you last Monday in my final Sherpa column as one of the people who was a huge influence and inspiration to me when I started the company in 2000. You were gracious enough to call me on the phone with congrats when you heard Sherpa launched. Then you invited me to your home in Andover when you heard I moved to New England a few years back. Your warmth is returned to you from a circle of friends and acquaintances of which I am proud to be a member.
One note on the side - my husband is a natural healer from Europe, and he says the best thing for you to try for now is a spoonful of Royal Jelly every morning. You need to use a wooden or plastic spoon (no metal) and keep it refridgerated. Jars of Royal Jelly - a bee product - are available in many healthfood store fridge sections. It’s the most intense food you can give your system, used by the elderly and sick babies in Europe. Good luck and keep warm.
Andy,
I don’t believe I’ve every spoken to you in the past, but saw a post about this on the warrior forum and decided to give it a read.
Prayers go out to you and your family and make sure you live every single day the way that you want to live it.
I’ll check back here for further updates.
One more note: my husband has been able to cure liver problems, including Hepatitis, by following a pure vegetable juice diet for 30 days. He says the best reference book available in English on this is at http://www.amazon.ca/Breuss-Cancer-Cure-Rudolph/dp/0920470564
The key is only “eating” the juice and nothing else to give your liver a rest while still providing lots of calories. You need a good juicer in your home, and a careful selection of vegetables for it — beets, carrots, celeriac, parsley, and others. The specifics are in the book. I’ve seen this cure in action myself and been very impressed with it. You can make juice every few days and refrigerate it in glass bottles in between (we try to avoid plastic bottles for this.) Let me know how things go.
And he’d be happy to discuss with you on the phone anytime — just email me. Anne
Hey Andy,
I got to know you through the Warrior Forum and Facebook……
I’m saddened by this news of your struggle with these illnesses. I can empathize with you about your heart bypass as I had a multiple heart bypass operation last year…
It’s a huge testimony to your character and spirit that many of us were totally unaware of your battle.
Know this - “that the God that formed you and knew you while you were still in your mother’s womb” and the “God that knows how many hairs you have upon your head” - knows your situation right now. He is not untouched by your infirmities. He loves YOU…..
As has been said by others - the doctors don’t know everything…..
Miracles still take place today….
Andy, we will pray for you…..
Bless you
Greg
South Africa
Hi Andy,
I have never met you before but reading this powerful blog made me want to say that you are a very strong minded man and you have touched the hearts of many people.
Your courage and strength are amazing and i wish you the best of luck my friend. God bless!
I will be praying for you, Andy.
Dude, it feels like I was hanging out with you yesterday.
When we were last talking, you allowed me to reveal my story in full detail. You never mentioned this.
I’m so sad to hear about what you are facing, my friend. Being sick sucks. I hate it, but I don’t have to deal with what you’re going through Andrew.
You’ll be in my thoughts and prayers and I hope to see you soon.
Ross
Andy,
So sorry to hear about your health issues. My thoughts and prayers are with you for a speedy recovery.
For everything science does know about the human body there are probably 10 times more we do not yet know. The body has amazing healing powers and here’s hoping yours heals you quickly!
~John
Hi Andy,
I am so sorry to hear of your condition. I have a suggestion as to your food intake. Get yourself a “Juicer” and juice your food.
Vegetables and fruit that has been juiced has already had some of the “digestion” done for you. It is very nutrient-available and easy for your body to utilize.
Some of the juices are diuretics and can help reduce the accumulation of fluids in your body. You will feel better, too.
My prayers are with you,
Adam
Andy,
I don’t know you personally but have read posts in past on warriorforum you wrote. That is good you don’t give up easily and hopefully there are some way to improve the albumin level. If there are, I know you will find them due to your intelligence and persistence.
My sister found out she had lung cancer due to the treatments she received for hodgkins in the 80s, so her situation was similar. It took 18 years to appear (never showed up in chest xrays).
You have the wisdom to treasure each day, which few know.
Debbie
Andy,
Thoughts and prayers for you and your family. Need anything, just ask.
-Mike
Hey Andy,
I’ve just started reading a book called “the Shack” (half way through)…..
Do yourself a favour - get it now!!!!
It’s about a man who through a terrible tragic incident meets with God….
I’m not saying anymore…..
It’s absolutely amazing!!!
Bless you and your family…
Regards
Greg
South Africa
Hey Andy,
Alysan Delaney-Childs just told me about your blog post and I feel bad that you are going through this.
I’ve felt a special connection to you since you braved the “Hot Seat” at jvAlert Live Orlando and we got to spend some precious time together taking about the future.
I thought it remarkable and laudable that someone of your vast experience and success would put themselves in a position to have your ideas critiqued by people who may not have been as successful in their own businesses.
Your constant search for new ideas, new challenges and new experiences and your willingness to grow forever, serve you well, whether it’s in business or in fighting for your life.
Isn’t life a grand adventure?
Yes, it’s full of uncertainty and occasional sharp, sharp jolts of unexpected — and expected — pain.
But, imagine the experiences that we have every day. So much to know. So much to experience.
The bottom-line is that you make a difference - whether you want to or not.
I’ve asked hundreds of people, “Who impacted your life the most and what did that person do to have that massive impact?”
In almost every case, it was a person who simply said a kind word at the perfect time.
Nothing big, just a validation that life is worth living and that we all make a difference at a time when someone needed it most.
I can tell you that you are continuing to make a difference every day and what is more that difference will carry on beyond your life — however long that may be.
You continue to touch millions with your ideas, your generosity and your heart.
Each person we touch has the potential to touch thousands of other people.
Since the day we met and for the rest of my life, you make a difference to me.
All the best,
Ken
Andy…
Having just lost my sister suddenly, my heart goes out to your family, as well as to you…
I can’t help but be reminded of Randy Pausch, who had also touched so many in a life cut too short…
But after reading the outpourings from those above, all I can say is fight it tooth and nail - allow your subconcious to heal what it can, and find the practitioners who can deal with the remainder. It’s obvious you’re still needed, if you’re up for it…
May the fates be willing.
Andy - I was stunned to see this.
I missed you at the last two JVAlert Events and was hoping to see you there!
And…as a speaker at the next Underground Seminar, I was counting on seeing YOU in the audience, cheering me on!
You were one of my first connections in this industry - such an encouragement without asking for anything in return.
I am praying for you and your family. I am thrilled you are at peace…but I also know the Great Physician and I can pray for miracles too
Thank you for being so transparent with your reality. You have AGAIN encouraged and inspired me.
Carrie Wilkerson
The Barefoot Executive
http://BarefootExecutiveOnline.com
Andy,
I am inspired by the way you are handling this. Thank you for being so transparent and know that the prayers of many are with you in your time of need.
Humbly,
Joel
Hi Andy.
Ken MacArthur “tweeted” about your health challenge over on Twitter which is how I arrived here.
We’ve never met, but based on all the responses it’s clear you’ve made a positive impact on many peoples lives.
I have prayed for you and your family and hope only the best for you.
Tim
Andy,
I had know idea … I assumed, though you were always quick to respond, that you were just too busy. Wish that was the case.
Still … I’ve no doubt, as J-Mo proclaimed, that it will be the latter … years.
God Bless you, my friend …
Mike
Andy,
We met several times at JVAlert and shared at least one meal together.
You have endured trials that would have felled most people. That kind of strength will go a long way in sustaining you, regardless of what the doctors say.
You’re in my thoughts.
Take care,
–Karl Barndt
Hi Andy - I just heard about your situation from Ken McArthur.
I want to send you my best wishes and look forward to shaking your hand at an upcoming IM event.
Best regards,
Peter
PS thanks for the “so gay” post on your blog - a teenager of ours is going to watch a certain Youtube video today
Greetings, Andy — and well wishes…
We met — can’t remember if it was 2006 or 2007 — at Yanik’s Underground Seminar. At the dinner. You joined the table where I was sitting with Willie Crawford and Kelvin Brown, among others.
I am very sorry to hear about your health situation.
From this viewpoint, it would seem that your success in life has been — and will continue to be — due to your sunny, optimistic disposition.
You are setting yourself as an example of what that means and how effective it can be — and will continue to touch many people, as I am sure it has touched many already.
Live JoyFully!
Judy Kettenhofen, Profit Strategist/Copywriter
NextDay Copy
http://www.NextDay-Copy.com
hi andy…i do not know you personally except in spirit..we are all brothers in this business..my prayers are with you take care
Sometimes knowledge is a double edged sword! Wondering what the heck is causing us hardship is tough, but finding out can sometimes take you down because of the immensity of it.
Luckily, from the times I have met you at jvAlert Live events in the past, you were always the picture of a winner, never letting on the struggles you were facing while continuing to make things happen in your business.
I will be praying for you - because I believe God can do all things through those who believe!
So many people are touched by your life, and we want that to continue for many years to come. With the physical body come many tests, I am confident that you will pass this one, because of the strength you possess internally and the drive and determination that you have shown in the past.
Keep fighting the good fight, and I feel honored to have met you and spent some time with you!
Micheal Savoie
http://twitter.com/michealsavoie
Andy,
I personally have not met you, but know of you quit well.
Thank you for sharing such a personal story of strength and encouragement with us.
Your mom was blessed the day you came into the world, and now you feel your life has been blessed as you leave this world.
Nothing greater than having that “inner peace” you now feel inside.
Although your time is cut short, you have achieved more than most people have in their entire lifetime.
Not only that, but you have changed many lives for the better. (one of the greatest gifts you could give)
I pray for the miracle of your healing Andy….but also wish you and your family many more years of memories together.
Don’t stop fighting!
Touched by you,
Cyndi Parker
Hi Andy,
I am very sorry to hear of your rapidly declining health. I knew of your ups and downs, as you’d previously shared some of that we me.
You have a lot of friend who love you and send what healing energy we can your way.
Don’t stop fight my friend.
Willie Crawford
Andy,
You know that I value you as a friend. Let me just say publicly I value your integrity, your passion for doing things right and doing them well, and your generous, courageous spirit.
To put it all here publicly… now that’s generosity writ large.
Love to you and yours, in Christ,
Ray
Andy,
We have first met at JV Alert last year, then again in Denver at Jeff Walkers event. Danny Guspie and I had the opportunity to talk about our launch of our Divorced Dad Coaching program with Jeff’s help and the audience feedback during that event.
You are an incredibly brave soul and I am honored to have met and spoken with you at both events. Your courage is one that most of us hope we never have to muster.
I want to share 2 resources I learned about which can be of assistance to you. I became an active participant in my mom’s final journey when she was diagnosed with terminal cancer.
In our family we always looked at health and illness from several angles including western medicine and alternative options. In my quest to help my mom I discovered a young man who goes by the name of Adam.
Adam became famous at age 15, when his story was published in Rolling Stone Magazine several years ago (he is about 21 today). In short, Adam has the gift of energy healing which he now teaches. He became famous when he worked with Ronnie Hawkins, an old rock and roll legend - that’s when Rolling Stone Magazine interviewed him.
Ronnie Hawkins was told he had terminal pancreatic cancer with 1-2 months left. Adam began treating him, over time his tumor disappeared. The doctors could not explain it. Ronnie is still alive today in his 70s.
Adam teaches energy healing at workshops and has also published several books. This is worth considering. It really helped my mom, and she lived much longer than predicted and with limited pain.
Adam’s website:
http://www.dreamhealer.com
Morris Goodman is also known as the Miracle Man. He was in a horrific plane crash, as a quad who could not breath without a machine. He decided that he would walk out of the hospital by December, the doctors said that would never happen. The doctors said the fact that was even alive was a miracle, his spinal column was crushed and so on ….
Guess what, he DID walk out in December.
Morris was also a featured speaker in the movie “The Secret”.
Morris’s Website
http://www.themiracleman.org/w_movie.htm
Andy, my thoughts are with you. I am positive that you can turn this around and begin the process of feeling better.
Remember that we only use about 10% of our brain power, the 2 previous examples, I believe tap into some of the 90% of our brain power that we don’t use.
I wish you wellness and will focus on sending you positive healing energy.
Best Regards,
Heidi Nabert
Andy,
I’m saddened to hear about your medical condition. Please know my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
Stay strong and live every moment to the fullest.
Ryan Lee
As I read the comments of others, I realize how many lives you touched and, indeed, blessed.
I pray God’s blessings on you in this tough time.
Phil
Any, we worked otgether on the very first search solution for ClickZ back when I was running a service known as TotalNEWS.
Way back then, you were already so inspiring to those of us who faced any sort of challenge in online marketing.
Here you are again being a source of inspiration. it has always been an honor.
Roman
Andy,
It takes a special kind of person to be able to tell their private story. I didn’t get to meet you at JV Alert Live but saw the post about you in Ken McArthurs blog.
Aside from, of course, wishing you the best possible outcome, I would suggest you may want to look to some alternative care. I’m NOT suggesting anything way out but, rather, seek out the medical doctors who are practicing complementary medicine.
If you want to learn more about these kind of leading edge doctors, I’d suggest Suzanne Somer’s latest book (or any of her last 3 for that matter) “Breakthroughs”
No, it’s not a typo. She’s been researching and on the leading edge of medicine for several years and, after treating her own cancer successfully, has been on a mission to educate people about what’s working.
May God bless you and your family.
Be well,
Jim
Andy, you have my prayers and my appreciation in everything you set out to achieve in your life. We face challenges every day and one way or the other we are always able to find a solution. Death is a passing phase we will all encounter, it will be a time when we know there is nothing we can do but we can always look back and reflect. A man’s life is not measured by us or God how much money he made in his life but the structures he created and left behind. Randy Pausch and Gary Halbert and many others including my wife knew and faced the uncertainty of their demise but faced it with courage. Perhaps one day we can all back at ourselves, raising a smile.
Andrew, i’m so sorry to hear of your condition, life has an unfair habit of kicking those who least deserve it, but i am sure with your inspiring positive attitude, it will have a very tough customer on it’s hands !
Wishing you and your family all the best for the future.
Ian Hagerty
P.S. I have posted your blog on twitter.
Hello dear one,
I do not know you only that you have been a wonderful influence in many lives and now you seem to be in peril.
I do not know the facts but I do know that upping the ph ever so slightly in your body will dismiss many dis-eases including cancer. I am an ORT facilitator and would be happy to speak with you any time. Perhaps there is more to your story yet to come.. I wish you hope and comfort and please do contact me… you just never know where the next miracle may be happening.
Brightest of Blessings to you
Sheila Z Stirling
Andy,
I was alerted to this through a friend…man…what can I say? You’ve been through so much already. And I only knew a small piece of it when we met. As much as I feel sadness - I also feel hope. I hope you’ll take the time you have and do something incredible with it. You’ve got a lot of teach to hopefully create a legacy beyond what you’ve already accomplished (which is a lot!)
Andy - my best wishes and thoughts are with you. Hang tight!
-Yanik
I’m saddened to hear about your illness, yet inspired by your courage and outlook.
I’ve enjoyed out times hanging out at seminars and the mastermind at the lake.
I wish you the best and will keep you on the invite list for the next one. Something tells me you’ll be attending. You’re pretty good at beating the odds.
Jeff Mulligan
WOW, you are and a wonderful example of a HOPE that endures.
You’re truly a special man and I pray that as you transition from this challenging season and into the next, the blessings in the lessons will continue to be reveled.
God bless you, continually
Sanyika
I don’t know if you are able to travel, but if you can, please look up cardiologist Dr. Matthew Holland of Boulder, Colorado (Boulder Medical Center.) He saved both of my parent’s lives. My Dad had only months to live with cardiomyopathy and lived 15 + years after he was treated by Dr. Holland. He diagnosed my mom with an aortic dissection and got her treatment within minutes–this is a condition only a small percentage of people survive. He is a brilliant and renowned physician and may be able to help you beyond your current outlook. My best wishes and prayers to you.
Lorie
Oh wow, what an inspiration you are.
What a loving and beautiful heart you have.
Please know, Your light will shine for ever and ever
My Love and Prayers go to You and Yours.
Lucia
Andy,
I do not know you, but I felt moved by your post. I would like to say this: I watched my father, both of my grandfathers, and three uncles die from cancer. I saw how they slowly went from large, healthy men, to (to borrow a word from you) emaciated individuals. None of them had the resilience or the fortitude or the strength you are exhibiting. I applaud you for being positive. I’m not going to say I know how you feel, because I’ve never been there, but I do hope when everyone is telling me that the end is inevitable, I will have a fraction of the peace that you have. Also, I am a speaker. With your permission, I would like to showcase your story as an example of the power of human will the next time I stand before an audience.
Yours truly,
Norris Williams
Andy, from the beginning of my Internet experience, you were my hero. You still are.
Thanks for sharing something so deeply personal. Thanks for being such an inspiration through the years. You are a standard bearer. The best.
Love and prayers…